Will I trust in Him?

I was re-reading a book - I do that all the time - I love so much, AVoice in The Wind by Francine Rivers. The book was about a fictional character Hadassah who had to choose between her life and her faith in God. She choose to stick with God even though it would have cost her her life.

I was asking myself some tough questions, 'when the situation becomes intense, can I honestly say I am with God all the way?' When I'm put on the spot like Peter, will I say 'yes, He is my God' or will I answer like Peter 'I don't know Him'. Can I honestly say to myself and God, "Even if all fall away on account of you, I never will." If He slays me, will I still trust Him?

The truth hurts me to admit because I know in my heart that I cannot be like the three Hebrew boys - Shadrach, Meshach and Abdenego - and say in the face of being thrown in a furnace that 'I know that the God whom I serve is able to deliver me but even if he doesn't I still trust in Him'.

I was saddened that my faith was not as strong as the faith of the other humans who have walked the face of the Earth

But I'm working on it, spending more time with God and reading His Word because I know that persecution is part of the Christian faith. I want my faith to tower above earthly difficulties